Author: Azzy
Beta: Anne/Asylumfarm
Archive Warnings:Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
Fandom:Mass Effect Trilogy
Relationships:Kaidan Alenko/Male Shepard, Kaidan Alenko/Miranda Lawson
Characters:Kaidan Alenko, Kaidan Alenko’s Mother, Kaidan Alenko’s Father, Henry Lawson, Steve Cortez, Karin Chakwas, Ashley Williams, James Vega
Additional Tags:the mother of all AU, Dystopian future AU, Master/Servant, not to any extend a bdsm fic, the master servant dynamics is taken quite literally, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Dubious Consent, dubcon, Sexual Violence, brain washing, Bittersweet Ending, Really Bad Decisions, immature characters, Stockholm Syndrome?, Forced Marriage, Hurt/Comfort, no space travel, No Reapers, Alternate Universe – Teenagers
Summary:John Shepard needs to get away from the slums, he does the only thing someone in his situation can do – sell himself into a two year servitude.
Notes: I do realise that it doesn’t speak well for a story when you have the urge to explain it beforehand, but honestly I do. This is just a silly story which is a mix between 50 shades of grey, a Handmaids tale and the winter soldier. Seriously – I am not here to write a story about reality, but a weird type of fever dream instead. Ergo, none of anything written in this story is written to be realistic, not even close.
Thank you to Anne Sturtevant for the beta job, you save my grammar and my sanity. 😉
And thank you to HeavenOnFire for the awesome artwork, and for constructive feedback allowing me to edit the story into something better. You are awesome. Please go visit her HERE
This story is written for the mass effect big bang 2018
You can find a play list HERE

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prompts table

I realise prompt tables was something we did back in the LJ days, but I can’t help but get a little nostalgic finding a prompts table I made for this journal back when I started it, and was WAY more active in fandoms than I am now.. Well maybe someone can use my ‘DIRTY ANGELS’ table that I made. If you use it, please let me know, I’d love to see what you come up with.


001. Scabs. 002. Lady. 003. Chocolate. 004. Wings. 005. Dream.
006. Together. 007. Away. 008. Shadows. 009. Watching. 010. Twist.
011. For the kill. 012. Crooked. 013. Virus. 014. Erase. 015. Bleak.
016. Before. 017. Phoenix. 018. Without. 019. Behind it all. 020. Encore.
021. Distorted. 022. Learning. 023. For you. 024. Leap of faith. 025. Untrue.
026. Polished. 027. Unfelt. 028. Liars. 029. Skin. 030. Sacrifice.
031. Sharpen. 032. High. 033. Sometimes. 034. Vain. 035. Drink me.
036. Eat me. 037. Useless. 038. Signs. 039. Ripe. 040. Masks.
041. Play. 042. Fight. 043. Stumbling. 044. Sober. 045. Kiss & tell.
046. Flight. 047. Stale. 048. Forgotten. 049. Forgiven. 050. Predator.



Did you ever read my story ‘Don’t Be Afraid?’

Some years ago I wrote a MEBB story called ‘Don’t be Afraid’ – you can find it here . So I was playing State of Decay when I got the idea for it, and because I just replayed that game, I couldn’t help but to take some screenshots of the scenarios.

For some odd reason I didn’t get screenshots from the military camp where the story begins, because that is also very much in the story and the game. Anyways, I just thought it was sorta funny and wanted to share.

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Come as you are.

author: Azzy
warning: none
rating: Mature
fandom: Batman: Arkham (all media)
characters: Jason Todd/Dick Grayson
Summary: Grayson discovers that Bruce has kept Jason hidden at Arkham City and never told anyone that Jason was in fact alive, and swept the entire Arkham Knight incident under the rug.
AN: So Heavenonfire wrote this awesome Thexan/Arcann fic and I was bribing her into writing me some more, I told her I’d write her anything she wanted, and she said she wanted Jason/Dickie, and that she wanted Jason to give one of his weird-ass love confessions, and a happy end. I tried to add that =) (so she is the only reason it’s a happy end, cause yeah I would not have ended this like that otherwise).
In this story Batman arrested Jason as he defeated him as the Arkham Knight. He never told anyone who the Arkham Knight was. And also Knightfall never happened.

Betaed by Asylumfarm.

You can find a playlist here 8-tracks


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Canis Canem

author: Azzy
warning: none
rating: Explicit
fandom: Mass Effect trilogy/Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim
characters: Kaidan/M!Shep
Summary: When the leader of the Dark Brotherhood chapter in Dawnstar is murdered under strange circumstances, it leaves the chapter in the hands of John Shepard. He is young and inexperienced, and hardly a candidate to fill the vacuum of power. The Nightmother conveys through the listener, a strange request; to kill an ally and recruit a man they never heard of.

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Author: Azzy
Artist: Ruby
Beta: Robotkumo & Asylumfarm
Pairring: none
Characters: Seth Ryder × Liam Kosta × Gil Brodie × Foster Addison × Cora Harper × Clancy Arquist × Alec Ryder
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Everybody fucking dies × No happy end × Insanity × Murder × Alternate Universe – Dark × alternate universe – no space travel × Alternate Universe – Post-Apocalypse × Madness × No Romance × Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con × Implied/Referenced Child Abuse × Implied/Referenced Self-Harm × Implied/Referenced Abuse × Implied/Referenced Drug Addiction × Daddy Issues
Summary: Seth Ryder is awoken from cryosleep to a world that is very different than the one he knew. The only thing he has to hold onto is his survival instinct and his ever present voice in his head called Sam.
Authors note: This story was supposed to be twice as long, so I had to end it on a cliffhanger and who knows, I might write the other half to the next mebb?! This was actually just the introduction of Seth and the universe – but it just has to work as a story, cause I ran out of time.
Anyways I feel like I should explain this story a little.
I am aware that this is a super simplistic and crude depiction of hearing voices, but it’s too hard to write too many voices in his head, but also I wanted to play into the fact that during the game Sam tells you what to do, so it’s not that I am trying to depicture a realistic and true image of what it means to hear voices. Nor am I poking fun at people who hear voices or mental illness in general.
All the ‘implied’ warnings above is only a mention by Sam inside Seth’s mind, Sam likes to remind Seth of terrible things, so it’s just like a line or two, but I still felt I should warn for it. I made up my own universe for this, and I hope it makes somewhat sense, I borrowed heavily from games like Fallout and Killzone. And while the game Senua’s sacrifice was not out when I wrote this, then I can see how some of those themes could resemble themes in this story too. You can see a screencapture of Seth here.
Thank you a million to AsylumFarm & Robotkumo who looked my story over and tried to make it work. You guys rock!! And thank you to Ruby who was my artist again this year, it’s always a joy to work with you – seriously. Go see her wonderful art here.

cacophony (kəˈkɒfənɪ)
n, pl -nies
harsh discordant sound; dissonance

bannercacophonies copy

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