Battle Brother

author: Azzy
warning:Pining, Unrequited Crush, Suicide, Depression, Alternate Universe – Modern Setting, Alternate Universe – No Reapers
rating: M
fandom: Mass Effect
pairring: Mshep/Kaidan
Summary: John Shepard one day decides to break his isolation and visit the local soup kitchen because Veterans eat for free.

A/N: For I_Write_Tragedies_Not_Sins.
This is a “modern” AU, there are geth and space travel, but no reapers and earth is largely as it is present day. Shepard was dismissed after Akuze so there is no n7 or spectre stuff.

I wrote this for the mass effect fic swap 2016, which I had never planned on participating in, only running. But then I_write_sins_not_tragedies needed a parter to swap with and I stepped up – she asked for a tragedy, and I pulled all the stops…. BUT for those of you who like a less depressing ending, I have a epilogue/alternate ending because even I felt they deserved a little happiness. Thank you to Ruby/Solstheim & HeavenOnFire for giving me feedback – I simply ran out of time because RL was hammering me and I couldn’t incorporate everything you suggested.

Also sorry for the lack of beta – didn’t have time to find one. =(

There is a playlist here

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Faux Pas [chapter 13/14]

author: azzy
beta: none
illustrations: maxxiedemon
warning: implied child abuse, major character death, bigotry, AU medieval setting.
rating: M+
fandom: mass effect
pairring: kaidan/mshep, implied; miranda/shep, jack/shep
wip: 13/14

So I decided to cut this short, truth is that I simply don’t remember what I wanted to write, but I do remember the end, so I sorta just re-arrenged things and pulled out all the inbetween. I have changed the warnings as a result of the changes. (with other words, I removed the happy end tag, and gave it an open ending tag) – Thanks to Portionsmaster for kicking my ass in regards to finishing this.

I listened to this while writing, thought I’d reccomend the new album by Faun while i was at it, it is super! Faun – Federkleid

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A thousand suns

This is just a little writing exercise from Tumblr, actually it’s just a scene that wouldn’t leave me alone, i fully intend for it to have a part two in some sense, since the original is longer. Point is just that I simply have no time… and I really want to master the shortfic.

Mshenko, mentions of Shep/Miranda, family drama, murder/suicide, character deaths, R rated.

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author: azzy
beta: Europolarist and Robotkumo
challenge: MEBB ’16
warning: Universe Alteration, Crossover, Synths (Humans), paradise falls (slavers), Ambiguous/Open Ending, Hurt/Comfort
rating: M
fandom: Mass Effect/Fallout 3
pairring: Kaidan/MShep
summary: Kaidan desperately wants a promotion and takes on an assignment with Elder Lyons’ daughter Sarah. Together they are sent out to find one of the infiltrators from the great war, an ancient artifact made of synthetic skin and wires.
AN: Alright so this is maybe the strangest story I ever wrote, and absolutely the story I ever edited the most. Very inspired by Screamers and Blade Runner. I want to thank Europolarist and Robotkumo for the beta work, and an extra thanks to Robotkumo for not letting me freak out and keeping me on track. And of course a big thank you to Ruby who made the awesome friggin art! I am in love with your style!

Link to Ruby’s art
Link to Ruby’s playlist
Link to my own playlist


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Unsane 1/2

author: azzy
beta: asylum farm
challenge: –
warning: fear of madness, NOTHING IS AS IT SEEMS, sibling shepards, Imprisonment
rating: M
fandom: Mass Effect
pairring: Kaidan/MShep
summary: Kaidan is happy. John seems to have turned around, mending all his broken relations to not only Kaidan, but to Jane and Captain Hannah too. Everything is as it should be, until Jane pulls Kaidan aside and asks him if he never found John’s transformation from angry to responsible – really weird. [Sequel to Let’s get lost]
AN: This has been hanging out on my computer for the better side of 6 months, and I decided to post it in 2 bits because to my surprise people really wanted a sequel to ‘Let’s get lost’. Thank you all for your kind words, and I hope the story lives up to it. The sequel it self came about because some of the beginning of it, is actually the ending I wanted for the original, but I chose not to – mostly because it opened a Pandora’s box of more stuff, instead of tying anything together as endings are supposed to.
You can find a playlist here @8tracks

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